By anonymous
Staff Writer
How I Felt About Most Things by American poetry club
Lyrics
This is where I loved you for the first time and the last
And that is where I loved you for a second time
I hate it when people say that “love is like a cancer” because my mother has a cancer and it doesn’t feel like love
That’s okay I promise you will feel better in a while
“Come home I miss your silly smiles”
I’ll come home when I am ready, I’ll talk to you when things feel steady
But for now you’ll have to learn to live in silence like I did (x2)
And this one is kind of similar to all the others that I’ve written
Since I met you, since I wasn’t just another
It was pretty warm today, what will it be tomorrow
Will it fill up the whole atmosphere with love for me to borrow.
How This Song Relates to My Life
“How I Felt About Most Things” by American poetry club is a sad song that describes what it feels like to lose someone in a platonic and romantic sense. The meaning this song has to me explains the relationship I have had with my own mother in the past, many things have improved since then but I used to feel as if she resented me for how I dressed and how I acted. This can correlate with the lyrics “I hate it when people say that “love is like a cancer” because my mother has a cancer and it doesn’t feel like love”. I also ran away because I felt unwanted in my household and even though my mother acted like she wanted me gone she would always check in to make sure I was okay, but I was still angry that she said those things to me. The lyrics that describe this are “Come home I miss your silly smiles” I’ll come home when I am ready, I’ll talk to you when things feel steady. But for now, you’ll have to learn to live in silence like I did”.
I Will Do This for the Rest of My Life by Julia Brown
Lyrics
Because you’re still . . . In my dreams
I guess you mean, I guess you mean more to me
When I’m out, I’m falling out
I guess you mean, I guess you mean more to me . . .
Than nothing, than nothing
Than nothing, than nothing
Than nothing, than nothing
Than nothing, than nothing
I guess you mean, I guess you mean
I guess you mean, I guess you mean
I guess you mean, I guess you mean
I guess you mean, I guess you mean . . .
I guess you know (I’m trying not)
I guess you know (To feel anything)
You see it in my eyes (I’m trying not)
Every night (To feel anything)
I guess you know (I’m trying not)
I guess you know (To feel anything)
I guess you know that (I’m trying not)
You wouldn’t be there with me (To feel…)
How This Song Relates to My Life
The original meaning of Julia Brown’s song “I Will Do This for the Rest of my Life” is about the artist’s struggle with drug addiction. The title “I Will Do This for the Rest of my Life” explains his relationship with heroin and how he never wants to quit his addiction because it is the only thing that soothes his pain. I, however, have a different meaning connected to this song. When I was 16 years old I was diagnosed with mixed Bipolar, and this song explains my relationships with the ones I love the most. A common feeling people with BPD and I have struggled with is the feeling as if those that are close to me do not reciprocate the same love as I give to them. This is shown by the repeated lyric “I guess you mean, I guess you mean more to me . . . Than nothing, than nothing, Than nothing, than nothing”.
Dagger by Slowdive
Lyrics
The sunshine girl is sleeping
She falls and dreams alone
And me I am her dagger
Too numb to feel her pain
The world is full of noise yeah
I hear it all the time
And me I am your dagger
You know I am your wound
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
She whispers while I’m sleeping:
“I love you when you smile”
I didn’t really lose you
I just lost it for a while
The world is full of noise yeah
I hear it all the time
You know I am your dagger
You know I am your wound
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
I thought I heard you whisper
It happens all the time
How This Song Relates to My Life
The songwriter’s meaning to this song is about a close one who passed on and the love their significant other still feels towards them though they are gone. The meaning I have to this song, closely explains how I feel towards my own partner. The dagger symbolizes my loyalty towards him and the lyric: I didn’t really lose you, I just lost it for a while shows the rough patches both me and him had to go through to get to where we are now. [ We will be dating for a year on March 20th 🙂 ]